Piece of paper(Fiction)

Piece of paper----------

"I am resigning.I can't live this sucking life anymore.I am resigning as a loser and I'm resigning from every thing,every pain as there is no chance to recuperate."

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A 2 year old kid is playing with the ball in the shopping mall.The shopping mall railing is so dangerous that it can allow the baby to kiss the ground floor within no time.She is in 5th floor now.

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"I should not have played with you .You are such a weak player" He shows anger on her after losing 3 continuous sets of mixed-doubles Badminton.She remains silent.He continues,"Whats the hell in the court? you were moving like a snail."

"Who the hell asked you to play with me? And who did mistakes in the court.You smashed my racket 7 times even hurting my hand a couple of times and you crushed my feet and now complaining about my movement."She wants to say this but she won't because she is more understanding than him and she understands that love exists between them forever and losing a game is not a prestigious issue but losing love is losing everything.She remains silent not to make things more worse.

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" Its not about prestige or publicity or failure or success.We have to make this work.You know many micro finance systems like 'Rang de' are working in India. S.H.G's in Government view are a big success but they are not.Some thing should be done in a big way.In a way, at least ,Mohammad Younus has done in Bangladesh.We should." He is sharing his dream with his friend walking in the same shopping mall.He continues," Its not about getting a noble prize like him.Its about some thing big.Its about helping people.'Accident of womb' as Warren Buffet say should not affect people's destiny.I cant see people crying.I am ready to die if I can fill happiness in people's lives but failures daunt me always"

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"God.! How can he say this to me? Have I shown any wrong intentions?All I said about my true feelings.God,I can't bear those words.It's better if I can end my life here itself."She is struggling after hearing those words "'You seem a prostitute'" from him.

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God starts his timer.He wants a life with in 6 minutes.He has to end some one's life to make this creation work.

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Kid's mother is busy in selecting a few frocks for the child,while child was busy in kicking the ball and wildly running behind it to catch and again toss in air and to kick it again.

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A few feet away from the kid,he is sipping his coffee and sharing his dreams.His voice in the quite honest mode," You know how I feel when I see these many people suffering? and when we are unable to realize the potential of land and we are committing the sin of 'avoidable sufferings'.I wish I would die to bring happiness in the lives of underprivileged, destitute and everyone.They should not be destined to live like this."

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She is struggling hard to digest that the best friend(he thought that he is her best friend) called him prostitute.'How can he perceive my true feelings as some thing lust.How doesn't he understand my love?"

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He throws the racket and says wildly," You know,you doesn't worth me and I dont feel that our relationship can exist even after this loss.You can never understand what's prestige is? and you let me down before all"

She surprises,who is letting other down?He is shouting at her before all and he is saying that she lets him down.Only the reason is losing in a college-level Badminton match .

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God sees the timer again.4 mins left.

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He writes something on the piece of paper and passes it to her.She stupefies seeing it.He says,"Good bye" and leaves on his bike,leaving her there .While coming,they came together.While going ,he leaves alone.May be,God needs only one life not two.

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'How can I bear this? How can I face the world,its like I lost the integrity.Next time,when a boy looks at me,How would I feel?Its better to end up here.Its better to end up here only.Yes,I need to end up'She thinks and writes something on a piece of paper and searching for some sedatives in the room.

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The kid tosses the ball again.This time,the ball passed the railings and rested on the iron groove below the floor.She is unaware of what is life and what is death?All she knows and wants is a ball to play and she passes the railings and holds the ball but she slips.Slips. Ohh,my god,God has 4 minutes left but why is He early in this kid's case?

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He continues his misery,"I am insane.You know I am really insane.My education.My philosophy .Nothing for the sake of mankind.Even I can't save a poor man's life in this nation and even,I can't fill happiness in a family.How miserable living like this after making promises to work for the happy society." His friend points him to the kid who is hanging there.Ball in her hand and her frock makes her to hang as a sharp point pierced into the belt of frock.He writes on a piece of paper and passes his to his friend and his friend looks at it stupefied.

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God sees his timer.2 mins left to take a life away.

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He heads to the girl.The girl starts crying.Her mother reaches her and she starts weeping and looking at her mother,the girl cackles and he reached there put his feet on railings and tries to pull the girl but unable as she is out of his hands reach.The frock may pierce off at any time and she may go down in no time

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He rushes like a mad man and misses an accident so close.He survives but doesn't slow down.Goes at the same speed.His blood boiling and he feels,death is better than the life after losing a game,which he challenged.

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she finds the sedatives,which were given to her when she broke her leg a few months before.She didn't use them then as he supported her mentally.Now she wants to use them as she lost his support and he calls him'prostitute' now.

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God sees his timer.1 minute left.

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She opens the bottle and fills her water bottle.Weeps and thinks of many good and bad moments.................

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A truck is approaching him and he is really mad now.Truck sounds horn but he is not listening it and moving to it in the opposite direction.They approach to the 'point of no return' at their wild speed............

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Without any further thought he jumps over the railing and holds the girl in a hand while holding the railing in other hand.The ball drops from her hand and kisses the floor and girl wants to jump from his hand to catch the ball and he misses the balance ......................

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Timer strikes.He can take a life now and God has a few choices .

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He is about to write the next set of scene but his heart stops pumping.His brain collapses.He took poison before a few minutes and it took the life away and piece of paper beside him moves," "I am resigning.I can't live this sucking life anymore.I am resigning as a loser and I'm resigning from every thing,every pain as there is no chance to recuperate."

Yes, he is a failure as a writer and God satisfied as he got his life.

One more minute..............

What the other characters in this story have written on the piece of paper?

Give me your feedback.I remember writing 'Going to die' in 2007(http://aravind4588.blogspot.com/2007/08/going-to-die.html) but I have certain guilty feeling after writing that but a few people told me that I was good and I didnt write any short story after writing'The seventh heaven' as I was busy with some adventures(Some day,I'll write about those late night adventures in my blog page) and I again wrote this fiction and tell me,whether you like it or not?Tell me about the flaws and blunders.It helps me and tell me which character you like the most in these characters.You can write here or can write to me at aravind4588@gmail.com and write to me if you want to know what other characters have written on the piece of paper?

Finally,Thank you for reading this.