Its 'the end' to a life.Unfortunately its my life.I am going to die within three days.Its hard to digest this fact but I should digest to live better in my last days
Doctor examined my reports and he declared,"U are suffering from 'acute coagulative anaemia' and you may live hardly for three days"
I am half-dead now.I am just hearing a voice from darkness.But I decided not to be depressed.I just don't want to tell this fact to anybody but I want to full-fill my 2 dreams- A DREAM OF DEVILMENT and A DREAM OF DIVINITY
I checked that my account got a credit of Rs.5000 and and I drew the last penny even.I reached college.The whole college is in flying colors as anniversary celebrations are going on.I entered into the auditorium and found a group dance is going on for the song "Abi to mai jawan hu.......".The song started to reverberate in my ears from that moment.I found my friend there and asked his bike.
I rushed out of of the auditorium.In the parking place,I found a girl over a scooty.She is looking awesome.I stood there for 2 mins and thought of involving her in my first dream.Observing her,I guessed that she is bothering for sumthing/she is missing sumthing.Its hard to full-fill such a big devilish dream that to in a less time and more to that by starting the game from the initial point but I decided just to finish the game for full-filling the dream
I approached her and asked,"Are u waiting for anybody?" She neither answered nor looked at me.I changed my question and asked,"Are u bothering for anything?" Instead of answering,she posed,"What do u want?" I just remained silent for a second and said,"Actually college anniversary is going on and none of my friends got free time to spare for me.But, now I want to buy a dress for my date and I don't know about dress selection.So............."
She pleasantly asked,"So......?"
Her pleasantness gave me sum confidence and I bluntly asked,"Can u help me?"
She just nodded and that's enough for me to take it as complete permission.I started the bike and asked her to sit on back seat.Shopped for a while and she selected a blue jeans and a black top.I bought them and got Rs.15oo debit from my wallet.
I dropped her at girls hostel and offered the dress.She was just surprised and asked,"Am I ur date?" I said ,"of course, if u agree..!" She just smiled and took the dress and to turn the coin completely,I asked"Can u accompany me to puri tomorrow evening?"
She just nodded her head again............................................
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From the girls hostel I rushed to railways reservation booking counter and booked a ticket and my wallet got just Rs.3000 now.From railway station I rushed to a famous bar in the city and asked him to supply a 'case of beer bottles' at my hostel the following day night.Now my wallet has mere Rs.1500 only.
The day came to an end and a day was deducted from my short life and only 2 days are there to work-out my plot.
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I and her left by this entire world(I am going to leave this world for ever,before leaving she accompanies me for a little time).We just surrounded by sea storms in puri beach.Now the entire world looking gloomy but she is looking gorgeous.My first and almost last sex companion(Till now,I neither asked nor she agreed to have sex,but I am going to seduce her).She is with me and I cant say,she lives with me forever because I'm not going to live in this world more fore having more quality of time in bed with her,but is there any fault if I expect a quality life for this time?
She came in the dress which I gifted her and I can't control myself without saying" She is looking sexy." All through my 20 years of life,I just believed in platonic love but as I came near to the end,I cant believe this.
I haven't even seduced/haven't started to do that,but she came near to me and we both laid on the sea beach watching sky and hearing sea.
I don't know the exact moment,she turned to me.She put her head on my chest and I stretched my hands.I started with my hands skid in her top and I caressed her cheeks,eyes and nose.Some time,I tried to play with her lips.She is more active than me and bit me fiercely on my neck.With a quick movement,I caught her head in my hands and brought her face over to me.Then I slipped arms under her waist and hoisted her into the air above me with her arms and legs kicking about like a crab.I brought her down flat upon me limb to limb.Half-an-hour later,we laid there nude.She may be content and I am also sum what content as my first dream was full-filled.But my mind started working to full-fill my second dream.i.e., DREAM OF DIVINITY.
Then she spoke for the first time on sea beach,"Cheetah,Are u content?"
I replied with a monosyllable,"Ah.....!"
She again asked,"If I die ,with whom do u enjoy this?"
I remained silent and she repeated the question.
I just asked,"what happened?"
She started crying and said,"I am suffering from 'acute coagulative anaemia' and I am going to leave this world in two days."
I neither revealed my secret nor tried to stop her crying.I just remained silent.I am into the deep silence.
the silence,where my heart stops...........
the silence,where my brain collapses...........
the silence,where the deception and divination meets.......................!
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When I reached hostel,it is almost 11p.m and a case of beer bottles were already placed in my room.I called all my friends and spreaded the beer bottles.Nearly 25 beer bottles for 10 members .All were fascinated looking me as I never sip a drop of beer/never given a beer party.I drank 2 bottles completely but nasha is not reaching my brain as the death warrant completely occupied it.
The clock struck 12 indicating the day end and also informing me about my last day of life.
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I rushed to railway station by 2 a.m to full-fill my last and final dream in this life.The dream is to die before the persons who has give me the birth.I caught 'prasanthi express' and my legs already turned black indicating the coagulation.The journey takes 16 hours and I can spend 5-8 hours with my parents.
From my mobile,I made the last call to her and asked,"Are u OK?"
She started crying and said,"My legs turned black"
I just laughed,
as my laugh reaches the burials.......
as my laugh surpasses the heaven..........
as my laugh irritates the devotions...........................!
I laughed until my laugh turns into tears and I threw the mobile from the window.
The black color reached my waist and almost I lost my senses up to the waist and its hard to move also.I just checked out my wallet and found a Rs.1000 note.I stand up with the help of berths.I reached the neighbouring compartment and found a 'Nirmal-hrudai' nun and put the Rs.1000 note in her hand.From the announcement,I analysed about the hour more to reach my home.
The train reached my town and I found black color is just an inch lower to the point of heart and if it touches my heart,'I am no more.'I hired an auto-taxi and rushed to home.My eyes are half open(wow.! what a optimism..!) and when I reached the home I am just able to see a creature like my mother is approaching to take luggage from my hand and my father is there with a bottle in hand to provide mewater
I collapsed at the entrance and its the final collapse.I am no more.I am dead.I died at the place where I was born and brought-up.I died at the place where I was criticized by many and admired by a few.I died at the place where I created a lot of head-ache to the people.My death has ultimately lowered the burden for many people who unnecessarily think about me and who unnecessarily try to access me.
My dreams are full-filled but still I have an unfinished dream-all through my life I was treated as budhu/dheela.At least I want my death should change their analysis.
YES, I AM NO MORE.YOU FURTHER CANT FIND ME IN THIS WORLD FOREVER.I AM DEAD.
There ends the story................................................
1 more minute.............!
What happens if I die in three days?No loss to the world but sum may cry.Of course,sum may laugh even.
I don't know whether this story and story-line impressed u/not? Its an experiment and its quite different from my previous blog.Its really a typical story-line to develop and I agree that I am failed .
Only a few writers can express different feelings or say,different angles of a person/any incident/any moment perfectly.Its hard to portray a cock-tail with several mixtures.I just tried to portray such a cock-tail.
I just wanted to portray some professional college masala with the entry of the girl i.e., how students try to catch girls...!
I just not revealed about the dreams to maintain some suspense but I think,I failed in maintaining the suspense though I changed the scenes rapidly.I will try this better in coming blogs.
Puri scene....Really I have some guilty feeling about writing this scene but I have no other go to meld the story and to get the readers pulse' khuswant singh is my inspiration and I plagiarised some lines from his 'Train to Pakistan' to write the puri scene.Of course I referred from chetan bhagat's ' five point someone' to write this scene.I just failed in writing the love-making scene on my own. (Khuswant singh's first English story is about his death ceremony...)
After the puri scene,I tried to portray some sorrow but I think I am failed and I tried some poetic approach and I failed in this aspect too.........
Finally I wont think its a worst story but a average story from my pen,which may attract majority of youngsters as it has got some masala and majority of my friends also as it got some" unique-ness"
But u are the actual judge.Please drop ur comments and suggestions here /mail me at aravind4588@gmail.com
